Yesterday was my first Mother's Day. It was an emotional day because it wasn't that long ago I wasn't sure I would ever experience it.
This photo sums up my Mother's Day - just me and my baby. Without her, I wouldn't be a mother so while it was nice to share it with my husband, my mother and brothers, it was really about the 2 of us. We are mother and child as my brothers and I are for my mother.
One of the reasons the day was emotional for me is because I realised that even if I hadn't lost Peanut, it still would have been my first Mother's Day. That was something very special to me because there have been so many other days that WOULD have been my first but weren't. This was my one and only day that WOULD have and was. I think it was on my mind because it would have been Peanut's first birthday in 2 weeks time. It was lovely that I felt him and Babs with me yesterday.
I spent the day wondering if our children choose us. Do they float about, as souls waiting to be born, and decide who they want to be their parents? If they do, I'm glad Sticky choose us. The joy she brings into my life cannot be expressed in words. I think it's something that only another Mother can understand.
I am so very blessed to have this little person who makes me smile, laugh, learn, love and even cry. It is all part of the experience and I'm grateful for all of it. But, the thing I'm most grateful for is the fact this little person will soon call me Mum!
This photo sums up my Mother's Day - just me and my baby. Without her, I wouldn't be a mother so while it was nice to share it with my husband, my mother and brothers, it was really about the 2 of us. We are mother and child as my brothers and I are for my mother.
One of the reasons the day was emotional for me is because I realised that even if I hadn't lost Peanut, it still would have been my first Mother's Day. That was something very special to me because there have been so many other days that WOULD have been my first but weren't. This was my one and only day that WOULD have and was. I think it was on my mind because it would have been Peanut's first birthday in 2 weeks time. It was lovely that I felt him and Babs with me yesterday.
I spent the day wondering if our children choose us. Do they float about, as souls waiting to be born, and decide who they want to be their parents? If they do, I'm glad Sticky choose us. The joy she brings into my life cannot be expressed in words. I think it's something that only another Mother can understand.
I am so very blessed to have this little person who makes me smile, laugh, learn, love and even cry. It is all part of the experience and I'm grateful for all of it. But, the thing I'm most grateful for is the fact this little person will soon call me Mum!
What a beautiful picture - you look so happy! x
ReplyDeleteLovely post and great pic of you two!
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