Fabulous Friday

I had a post in my head ready to go until I remembered today was Fabulous Friday. Gosh, I give myself 1 week off and I’m off with the fairies. Baby brain kicking in perhaps! But, I remembered so here’s what makes today Fabulous – BBQ Shapes, floral pants and success.

I have a mustard seed in my ear!

Last night as I was going to sleep, I had a fear attack and got angry. I remembered one of the pregnant girls at work telling me her and her partner took every precaution possible and she still fell pregnant. She figured her baby was just meant to be. I thought why isn’t my baby just meant to be? I suddenly bolted up right in bed, struck with this overwhelming sense that this baby is meant to be. Holy crap! I just might end up having a baby!

Matters of the heart

Week 5 of a pregnancy is the most important – that’s when the embryo’s heart starts dividing into chambers and the cardiac cells begin to contract. It’s all in preparation for the heart to start beating from Week 6. If that doesn’t happen, you don’t have a baby – simple as that. No pressure though!

First meltdown complete

Today is a day of milestones – I am 5 weeks 1 day, Sticky is the size of an appleseed, my blood levels have doubled and I’ve had my first pregnancy meltdown. Not too bad for a days effort given it’s only 1pm!

Back with a bang!

I'm back from my grand adventure. It's lovely to be home and blogging again! I had a great time and I could regale you with tales of the amazing scenery, wildlife and food I indulged in but I'm pretty sure you're not going to be interested in that. Especially when I tell you I got positive pregnancy test the day before we left, and it was confirmed by yesterday’s blood test - I officially have a baby on board!

100 days of fertility treatments - The E-book

So here I am – I've survived 100 days of fertility treatments. I’ve been scanned, poked, prodded and jabbed. I’ve sucked down a million pills, sacrificed a few pints of blood and cried a few tears. But, I remain optimistic, hopeful and confident. I know I am on the right path and I know I will achieve my desired outcome.

I may only be at the very beginning of my journey. I may have many more scans, pokes, prods and jabs ahead of me. But if I do, I will welcome them all. I will rise to the challenge and I won’t let the universe beat me. I will remain strong and dedicated to achieving my dream.

So bring it on infertility gods. I remain dedicated and focused. I will continue the fight.  And just a heads up – I will win! 

To celebrate this milestone, I've put together some of the posts from the past 100 days into this free E-book. It's a summary of my treatments so far and the journey I've taken. I hope for those travelling the same path, it brings you some hope that you will achieve your dream too!

Tomorrow, I am off for a much needed and well earned break. For the first time in over a year, I'm treating myself to a blog break too. So dear friends, don't fret. I'll keep a record of my week away and will update you all as soon as I get back - come back on Monday 27th for the update.

In the meantime, the E-book will keep you going. It might be posts you've already read but I think it has a bit more context put together like this. Anyway, I hope you like it. And I would like to thank you all for your support this month. It's meant a great deal to me and I'm hoping to come back refreshed and recharged to continue the fight!

Have a great week y'all!

Fabulous Friday

Happy Fabulous Friday everyone. I have to say this is my most favourite Friday of the year so far. Why? Because it’s only 2 more sleeps until I go away. Woo hoo! But, back to task. What makes today fabulous? – improvement, hecticness and survival.

Acupuncture arsenal

I did my first round of acupuncture today. So not only have I collected another troop to fight in my war against infertility, but for the first time, I’ve found one who seems to have some plausible answers to my problems!

Changing directions

I am officially changing directions. Turning my compass north to see if it helps me reach my destination.

United we stand

This is a picture of my husband and I, taken at a wedding we went to on the weekend. It’s the first “in the moment” photo we’ve ever got of ourselves and right now, I’m cherishing it like it’s my only possession in the world.

Sometimes it's just crap

There’s no point trying to sugar coat it – today is crap. I feel crap. My coffee was crap. Work is crap. Even the weather is crap.  I don’t like feeling crap but sometimes, you just have to let crap be.

Riding the infertility merry-go-round

Yesterday I mentioned I had been reading some infertility blogs. At first, I was finding them really helpful in understanding my new found world of infertility. But they soon became all consuming and started to poison my mind against myself.

Fabulous Friday

Welcome to another Fabulous Friday! I can’t believe we’re here again already. What makes today fabulous? – discoveries, progress and Jaffas!

A sign from the Angels

My friend sent me a link to a blog post today from a woman who had a stillborn baby three years ago. Her coping suggestions were very similar to my own and they seem just as relevant now as they did when I wrote them, given the triggers I’ll be facing in the next few weeks. However, this woman did make one vital differentiation and it’s one I so needed to hear.

Wants versus needs

This morning I was on my bike ride, totally off with the fairies, admiring the sunrise. All of sudden my subconscious let me in on a little secret – I’m exactly where I need to be.

Buffing my limousine

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the current state of my life. Overall, it’s pretty good. But there are times I get down in the dumps. I feel sad, bitter and angry and sometimes that can hang around for a while. But then, I’m reminded of how good I’ve got it so I shut up, buck up and thank my lucky stars I have everything I do.

Dream the impossible dream

Sorry I didn’t get a chance to post over the weekend. It was one of those crazy ones that got away from me. It started with me meeting the future Spiderman, and ended with an emergency dash to the vet!

Fabulous Friday

Happy Fabulous Friday all. What makes today fabulous? – cupcakes, friends and strength.

Taking the road less travelled

Sometimes, when you’re on a journey, you’ll come to a fork in the road. You need to decide which way to go. You can take the safe option – the road you’ve been down before, or you can take the road you’ve never been down. As Robert Frost said “I took the road less travelled by and that has made all the difference.”

Surrounded by shoulds

Well here we are - the 1^st of May. The month I’ve been dreading for the past 7 months. It’s a month of shoulds so I’m going to try to not spend the whole month “shoulding” all over myself.